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I called five minutes after turning off the computer.

"Just listen, this is a good time to tell you some things, those who know Oiry want to tell me so hard and others have not told you before, you may not like to hear, but at some point had to say ... this is the time ...

To start I say I love you, from that premise, I hope that everything else flows alone, do not panic if ever notes weakness in my voice, not do it if at some point the tone is hard or intimidating you because you speak clearly when it comes to feelings, is a great effort.

have a power over me that no one ever had before, a power that I did not think anyone otorgaríaa jamásy in fact, I gave you, you you earned, you stole me, I must admit that perhaps from the first time I saw you in front of Babylon ...

That first night, which thanks to the amount of shit that I had taken, I just remember details, most importantly, what I remember most clearly is all about you, with your lips , with the touch of your skin, your taste, your inexperience, with fear in your eyes, your sorrow, but also with the value of take the risk to come with me, with a complete stranger ... some of those memories are so vivid in my memory as the closest in time ...

During these years my baloney and your tears have been a constant ... since the second time we met in front of the loft ... so far, I've always managed, even without the proposed letting me know, make you mourn, now when I think of each of the tears I have shed my fault ... I have been cruel to you, do not interrupt me now Justin ... let terminar.Te refused many times, so that at times even I thought he really did not care, keep to all that Brian Kinney did not believe in love, has hurt us both ... But you ... you ... God how stupid I've been all this time ...

I've pushed so many times in my life, I thank God that my blond guy never tired of insisting.

I would

to separate the memories, but there are times when it is not easy, as in the night of your graduation, I could stay just your smile, your body touching my hands, with your own sliding down my arms, with your eyes, your lips, FUCK JUSTIN ... had so much love in your eyes when we said goodbye ... I was scared, I was afraid, I could not admit that I cared, another stupidity, would have taken you to the loft ... I can not lose anything in Babylon that night was your night ... I could have prevented it, but I did, I did ... Justin could not ...

No, do not talk ... Fuck ... you face your father for me, for being with me and I ... I ... I could not do anything, I could not, and your smile last night, is something I'll never forget while I live.

Justin I wanted, really wanted, I wanted to give you what you needed, the I love the flowers, all he offered you, but did not know to like, I thought it would be better for you, I thought he would know how to make you happy ... I did not know how much I will miss going, the I needed you, how I wanted and then ... when I realized I was late coming to dinner with you, and you seemed to be happy at last, as they had been with me ever ... No Justin, do not blame yourself, never do ... I was, I threw as many times, I pushed into his arms, only regret the damage you did, because I can almost feel it as my responsibility as well.

Damn when I saw you in the dark room of Babylon ... Damn ... I thanked the heavens for letting me try again ... I thanked him for giving me a glimpse of hope, yet all was not lost and suddenly were in Vangard ... and fuck was so keen to hold you, kiss you I turned to scare ... ironic I know but if you had not kissed ... I do not know ... Justin ... was betting a heart of everyone telling me not have ... your lips reminded me of what was to be alive ... Your presence is what makes me alive ...

After cancer and fear, this time a fear that paralyzed me and you gave her hell again ... more than I ever thought you could show ... more patience than anyone would in your situation ...

not think it was back in Los Angeles, really did not think so ... but you came back, and the days have turned to light ...

Why the fuck I end up walking away from me? Why absurd reason I can not really make you happy? I've been several times on the verge of losing, but two of them was not only lose you, it was lose myself ... I get up every day to give thanks that you are alive ... giving thanks that supports me, giving thanks that despite everything you've done follow ones ...

I know that I get unbearable, I know I can not help, fear of losing you is there, lurking, waiting, and if for any reason ... Damn ... this is not easy at all ... I love you more than anything Justin, and trust you ... is only this distance ... ufff do not know ... we have to do this the two ... by the two ...

Sleep Justin ... tomorrow will be better ... I'm sure ... I love you. "

An hour later I was embarking NY bound ... and here I am ... his face asleep this morning when I arrived ... Colorado, with a fever ... I have fallen at a pharmacy before waking ... is now better ... I work a little ... do not let him get out of bed ...